i did not get a wink of sleep. ahh… it had to be last night huh. my sis and i talked all night. we talked about everything. and there’s a lot to cover.

and when it was over, i kept tossing and turning, my mind just decided to be elsewhere. ahh. why this. why. you…

waking up to this house. it surprisingly went a lot different. i woke up to the smell of my stepmom’s cooking. i got up to greet my parents a “good morning and kissed them both. my dad and my stepmom. it was like. a completely normal day. as if everything never happened. today went very different from what we all used to have. 

then i thought of the miracle man. this must be their doing. i smiled.

we sat and prayed. we thanked for many things. we ate. we talked.

it was surprisingly a kind day.

thank You. and thank you.


a small prayer

i think i’ve met the angel You have been telling me about. and i am very thankful for them. but because we are distant, i pray that You protect them. so, please hear my small prayer, okay?

i went for a run and i saw more cute old people than usual to say “good morning” to. today was a good day.

thank You.


another battle. everyday. working hard. to win my health and sleep back. trying to recover. to get along with my drawings a little more. to get along with the books i pick up and read. to cover bills especially with my apartment rent increasing.

all that while trying to stay grounded. things have gotten a lot harder. on everyone. myself included. and i feel a little fearful by the day. about this country. thanks to a particular credit company screwing over.

i just pray. i just truly pray. that things will become a lot better.

and hopefully. for the next year. i could finally become capable of seeing my mother. i could fly to japan to meet her again.

7 years is a long time… i miss home.

calm sunday

odd. i’ve been actually stressing out with work, school and everything else. but today was a little different.

i wish i could have more days like this.

i’m so ready for this semester to be done. only 3 more weeks to go huh.

so then – i could probably focus on myself a little more.

i need to keep looking for my own voice. grasp it. hold it close. as soon as i find it.