i did not get a wink of sleep. ahh… it had to be last night huh. my sis and i talked all night. we talked about everything. and there’s a lot to cover.
and when it was over, i kept tossing and turning, my mind just decided to be elsewhere. ahh. why this. why. you…
waking up to this house. it surprisingly went a lot different. i woke up to the smell of my stepmom’s cooking. i got up to greet my parents a “good morning and kissed them both. my dad and my stepmom. it was like. a completely normal day. as if everything never happened. today went very different from what we all used to have.
then i thought of the miracle man. this must be their doing. i smiled.
we sat and prayed. we thanked for many things. we ate. we talked.
it was surprisingly a kind day.
thank You. and thank you.
i think i’ve met the angel You have been telling me about. and i am very thankful for them. but because we are distant, i pray that You protect them. so, please hear my small prayer, okay?
i went for a run and i saw more cute old people than usual to say “good morning” to. today was a good day.
don’t ever say it was because of that. you idiot…
another battle. everyday. working hard. to win my health and sleep back. trying to recover. to get along with my drawings a little more. to get along with the books i pick up and read. to cover bills especially with my apartment rent increasing.
all that while trying to stay grounded. things have gotten a lot harder. on everyone. myself included. and i feel a little fearful by the day. about this country. thanks to a particular credit company screwing over.
i just pray. i just truly pray. that things will become a lot better.
and hopefully. for the next year. i could finally become capable of seeing my mother. i could fly to japan to meet her again.
7 years is a long time… i miss home.
odd. i’ve been actually stressing out with work, school and everything else. but today was a little different.
i wish i could have more days like this.
i’m so ready for this semester to be done. only 3 more weeks to go huh.
so then – i could probably focus on myself a little more.
i need to keep looking for my own voice. grasp it. hold it close. as soon as i find it.
i had my fun yesterday. i am banned from sweets and sugary foods forever again.
never eating sugar again. ✋